A Silence to Behold

Just a spontaneous prose that expresses a profound and deep state of Oneness (Yoga) in meditation. Uploading with almost no editing. Here it goes:

Scared I used to be about the little things in life. Dread was the result of the thought of my body’s infant needs not being met, my cherished possessions being snatched away, my heart’s thirst not being quenched, and my mind’s noble thoughts failing to create an inscription on the matter, leaving a mark on the world. Unknowing, I used to brood over my destiny, wondering about the meaning of life. A slave was I who served the thoughts, helpless against the fire of desire and the throbs of pain, a toy in the hands of passion and pangs of life, and a dewdrop over the lotus’ leaf being swayed away by wind forces of fate…

Crying, Alas! God? Why did thou send me here in this world of chaos and doom? Where the poison darts of sorrow to the heart, is that the price to pay for every cup of joy? Where the soul divine lives tormented by the sons of darkness, the life is driven by laws of probability and chance, and there hangs constantly over one’s head the sword of the fallen angel of death, who at his will sweeps a man’s life as a strong gust of wind sweeps away straw dust from a smooth marble floor. Where is thy justice and mercy that the mystics praise, and where is hidden the sweet promise of love and uplifting grace thy devotees talk about in their mellow and intoxicating words of adoration!… 

But then I realised, as if a curtain was lifted, a lightning thunderbolt struck the stone closure of the dark cave of life, and it crumbled, and a radiance poured in; it flooded life’s mundane scene with its golden splendour. The ocean waves of light and the explosion of bliss caused a tectonic shift that carried the island Ego of limitation and smashed it against the Spirit continent of freedom. At first an isthmus link was forged that yoked the two, but the mighty aftershocks prevailed until the two were fused to be One, once again forever. And it was then that I saw the Will that keeps an atom from fusing and dissipating it’s energy, that keeps the earth spining, maintains the succession of the days and nights, the source of Solar splendour that uplifts the worlds and lunar luminescence that delights the soul, the cunning that paints the galactic orbits and designs the intricate movements and machinery of the universe and that same cunning also fashions the curls of a woman’s hair, the lion strength of a Man, the smile and innocence of Child, the Force that nourishes all, governs all and yet stays hidden that force, the presence so intimate that we know it as our lover and yet seems so far away, inaccessible, invisible and unknowable…

That Presence, that Force, that Radiance, that Will. That I AM, was and will ever be. It is I who have created this Universe and Lords over it; what fear, what desire, what gain and loss do I have? What lack of delight is there in the source of all delight? What do I seek? What do I not have? For I AM and Was and Will Be Forever in Space and Time and beyond it One single Being. When darkness was engulfed within darkness, it was I who was there sitting in it; when the winds were asleep in the womb of ether, it was I who roused them and made them to blow. Even I can’t fully describe my greatness, my depths and breaths, for it goes beyond conception, beyond infinity, beyond anything a human mind can grasp; hence, I let Silence be my only description. And this is what I give you today: a Silence that supports and governs all activity, a silence that is all activity. Behold this if you can.  It’s a Silence to Behold!